Diana’s story

I was working for a coffee shop earning minimum wage where I met one of the most wonderful people I have ever known then and since. I was 18 years old when I got sucked into the big pink vortex that ruined my self esteem and my character.

I got to know this woman as my friend, my confidante and support. I soon found out that she was a MK consultant. I didn't know much about the company but I knew it was big and that they seemed to have integrity and since I had met a couple other MK consultants that had seemed happy I was all for it. I mean at 18 I was vulnerable and naive. How much harm could this person do to me if she was my friend. I even started going to bible studies with this person and her husband. The group was great and I even joined the church she went to. When she asked me to go to a meeting I was thrilled. She seemed so excited and so did all of the other women. I barely had enough money to survive but hey 100.00 could be in the budget. I was told all of the other things they tell you. "this is your business", "all of your business expenses are tax deductible" and the kicker "God first, family second, work third," funny how they can hook you with your faith. At 18 and no family support, my faith was all I really had.

I started going to meetings and once I was invited to my directors house. It was amazing. I should have picked up on the attitude of the group when I won an eye shadow as a prize and I told my director that I would never wear this dark color she gave me because I am so fair skin and makeup conscious, because the idea is to make yourself like you're not wearing makeup, right? She then proceeded to lecture me on the purpose of a gift. It is a gift, you don't ask questions.

I tried so hard to stay afloat. I got my fiancé at the time to co-sign for a loan for the product because my friend lead me to believe that, the more the better. I got the loan and ordered my product. A closet full. I handed out all 1000 business cards out believing that I was doing the right thing. I had faith. When my work schedule conflicted with the classes they said where free, my friend an my director proceeded to call me every day condemning me for not attending classes. Not in the it's bad for your business aspect but the, you're hurting our team aspect. I decided that I had gotten into MK to earn a little extra money but the time not earning any money was over shadowing the job that paid the bills. I got 1 response from the cards I handed out and my friends and family had stopped talking to me because they got tired of me trying to get them to buy some of the closet of bottles I had. I got laid off from my job and was without a real income. I decided to kick it into high gear. I didn't get any results at least not the results I was expected to get. I saw more girls my age in my group and after a while none of us looked happy.

Why would we, we were spending our own pocket money to make nothing.
I decided that the money battle was too big for me.

I felt like I was quitting my life. I let it control me for 7 years now. I keep thinking that I cannot succeed at any of my own ventures because I didn't succeed at this one. I stopped going to church because my faith had been altered. I disappointed the 'godly' women in my life. They stopped calling and stopped wanting to see me. After all I wasn't part of her bee hive anymore.

I have since got married and have to beautiful daughters. But, everyday I miss my friend. Sometimes I wonder if it was just a con, be my friend and get my to earn money for her.

I found this web site this morning and I now realize that there are other women who have experienced the same pain that I have had and I feel better. In fact I actually didn't realize how much I let that one experience run my life, until today.

Thank you for making me feel like I am not alone and that I don't need the make up to be beautiful.